seem to get tired very easily. mabbe i'm depressed? haha.
finally did a bit of tutorial today. still dunno how to do e field. at all. ugh. tml oni having phy pract den can zhao alr cuz got match with rj. our jersey not even ready yet la. wearing training t. -__- wadever.
cat got accepted by ucla pre-med! was so happy for her. time to start thinking of my future. i still dunno wad i want. keeping options open is not a good thing when u dunno wad d options are. haiz. dun think i'm going overseas tts for sure. no scholarship = no money. haha. i dunno. i need a goal, sth tt will keep me motivated to get As n do stuff n stand out. need to psycho mysef into wanting sth badly. law? sounds interesting but reality may be more abt paperwork n stuff. mabbe i'll juz follow mel's footsteps. darn. why can't i make up my mind and just work towards it already instead of drifting ard aimlessly.
i'm sick of myself. my whiny, indecisive, passive self. my naive, unmotivated, undisciplined self. my miserable, complaining, idiotic self. my critical, selfish, blind self. my unforgiving, perfectionistic, imperfect self. sick of it.
go away, self. i just want to be alone.
